nightmares suck

November 3, 2012 at 8:42 am Leave a comment

yes. they fucking suck. just woke up from one. hate that shit. feel so freaked out now. its early still so our foster moms not even up. she will be up soon though. i need her. but i cant tell her i need her. fucked up isnt it? see im not supposed to need. im supposed to suck it up and deal. deal with all the shit and not need someone, anyone to say its gonna be ok, you’ll be ok, its just a sucky nightmare, it will pass. i know it will pass but when your kind of freaking out and scared and shit its hard to just say o its gonna pass. when your right in the midst of it all, you know? so yeah, sucks. i wish i didnt have all these rules in my head that i think i should follow. your all probably thinking if i need my foster mom then why dont i just say so and be done with it, but it isnt that easy people. it just isnt. if your needs werent ever met then you learn not to need, simple as. ok shut up now ali cuz your rambling and thats dangerous. i should go downstairs and get a drink.



Entry filed under: Abuse, Alters, Flashbacks, Foster care, Foster child, Foster kid, Foster mom, Fostering, Inside kids, Memories, Trauma, Triggers. Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , .

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