I hurt

September 9, 2012 at 2:44 am Leave a comment

I hurt on the inside. I hurt on the outside. I hurt all over. I dont want to go on with life. I probably will, because some one of my insiders will take over and I will be gone. I dont know for how long, or when I will return. Probably when I am more stable. It sucks right now, life does. I just hate life. I wish I could stop existing. I wish I could dull the pain. Stop the memories. They are overwhelming me. They are totally freaking me out. The thing is though, I want to know what Ii went through. But every time one of my insiders shows me a glimpse of some of it, I freak out. Its like I cant handle it. I wonder if all hosts get like this. It bugs me. Will I ever know? Fully know and remember what happened to me? I dont know.

Emily

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Entry filed under: Alters, Host, Host post, Insiders, Memories, Trauma, Triggers. Tags: , , , , , , .

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