bedtime

August 15, 2012 at 1:07 am Leave a comment

taking us to bed. this is not good. we are triggered, we are spiraling out of control. we need to lay down and try to sleep. i am sure we wont sleep. but we have to try anyway. we have to look as if we are normal.

i am angry. really angry. i dont think its very fair that we are suffering. and our mom isnt. i am sure she isnt. i bet she is having a great time for herself. with her drug dealing ass and shit. i am sure she is probably high now and not worried about us or any of her kids. i hate her.

i wish our therapist wasnt on holidays. i wish it so much. i wish i could put into words all my feelings. its too hard. my words are too angry. i’d only say really awful things. so its best if i dont write anything down.

maybe when i am feeling less angry i will write stuff down. when i am calmer. i can think more clearly then.

right now i am too angry. i want to scream. and break stuff. and punch someone.

ali

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