its not a good night

August 12, 2012 at 12:09 am Leave a comment

its just not a good night. the memories are really bad. we are drowning in them. we wont make it. i cant see us making it. how can we get through this? and come out the other side? its torture. i hate it. i hate all the bad things that our family did. why? why did they hurt us and use and abuse us? why why why?

i suppose we’ll never know. thats the truth. its a hard truth. an ugly truth. we dont know what was in their head. why they didnt want their kids. why they did everything in their power to torture, use, abuse and hurt us. why they couldnt just stop. why did our mom take heroin? was she hurt as a kid? if she was wouldnt she want to save and protect her own kids? no i guess not.

its just so hard to know all the stuff. just when we think there cant be any more there is more. its neverending. and we’re barely surviving. we’re trying to tread water and keep our head above the water. trying and failing.


Entry filed under: Abuse, Alters, Bio family, Family, Flashbacks, Inside teens, Insiders, Memories, Triggers. Tags: , , , , , , , , .

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