days like this

August 9, 2012 at 8:53 pm Leave a comment

its days like this that i want to end it, yes end it. i wont, i just want to. is that so bad? am i bad for wanting to die? sometimes life doesnt seem worth living. we are too damaged, too broken, too crazy, too messed up in the head. i know some people will say we arent. that being multiple is just another way of life, of living. thats true, but it sure feels awful. it feels like we’re constantly struggling. constantly trying to fight, to hold on. to live for another day and for what? so we can suffer some more? that doesnt appeal to me. no. i’d rather end it. im not saying i am planning to end it ok. i am just saying how i feel. feeling is not the same as doing. is it? so i feel i want to die. i wont die, i just feel i want to do it. i am hopeful writing out my feelings will help me not to be so stressed.

ali

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Entry filed under: Alters, Did, Dissociation, Dissociative identity disorder, Inside kids, Insiders, Stress, Suicide. Tags: , , , , , , , .

blood agin This song expresses my feelings right now really well…

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